Access Issues:
In high school I
didn’t get any special accommodations for my OCD. I was in advanced
placement classes for the most part and I got pretty good at hiding
some of my unusual behaviors. Even though I was in the advanced classes, I
didn't feel too much stress and my medications worked so that I
wasn’t depressed.
Coming to college
was real different!! All these new people and situations.
Preparing for exams and taking exams are the worst. Part of my
disorder involves constant recurring thoughts – like a tape loop in
my head. Also, excessive worrying about knowing all of the content
from each class lecture and all of the textbooks.
One big problem is
that I constantly need to check if everything is ok (like rechecking
and rechecking all my answers on a paper, checking that the teacher
got my papers; rechecking my answers on a test so many times that I
sometimes don’t complete exams.)
I’m pretty smart
and I think that’s how I made it through high school but college is
much more difficult.
There are more
exams, the exams are longer and harder, and there is so much more
reading material for me to obsess about.
I really obsessed
about my poli sci classes, because the exams were so detailed and
complex. I got real bogged down and did poorly on my exams and
wound up failing two courses that semester.
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